Yesterday I angered you,
And for that,
I am still sad.
Depleted,
For I feel I have fought the good fight
But have nothing to show for it.
My dear,
You are my dream,
I can envision a future because of you
And yet the musings of my heart do not settle
They ramble on
As though in defiance of you.
It is as if you were an alien
And my body is fighting hard against you.
My dear,
The Lord brought us together, may no one tear us apart.
I petition him, for I would very much like to continue on with you.
I just feel hurt,
Immensely
Because I hurt you - accidentally I hurt you,
Not knowing, I hurt you
Not thinking, I hurt you.
But now, I blame myself for your pain and hurt.
I need to forgive myself,
I need to not hold myself to account
In order that I might love and accept you again.
